Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Strike My Mind | Kiss The Hippo

   

     I read myself alot, I've noticed. One instance is how I see people. Other people besides myself, I mean. Imagine this; You're at the park just enjoying a lazy day with a friend. You're surrounded with other people who came to kickback, relax, and rewind from the stress of the week. It's the kinda atmosphere that can only be appreciated with breezy layers and comfortable open shoes with the scent of spring in your hair and a smile on your face. When you overhear somebody point out a hippo to their friend, peacefully sitting on a bench gently rubbing a flower petal on their face while looking over in the distance presumably recalling a happy memory that can only make you wonder what could they be day dreaming about. Saying " Look at that hippo, they're really ugly" No doubt, was going to upset the hippo referred to if they had been in a hearing distance.


          I can't help but be annoyed by that. The reason for that was, before the hippo's looks was pointed out, they were only a person with a smile on their face to me. But after their appearance was pointed out, their outer layer melted off forcing me to look beyond that. Underneath that layer was a big crystal-like structure. It was approximately as long as the length of the hippo and almost the same width of the body. I saw that was what mattered; what made them a being and not what made them a hippo.


          I quickly looked away and scanned the scene in the park, peeling the layers of everybody, in my mind's eye, till you can only see that crystal inside everybody cut to be several sized smaller than their frame. . With that image in memory I see us all the same, if stripped of  all the shallow layers. To find the real you, one must dig through those layers whether naturally ( ex. gender, ethnicity, beauty) or artificially ( ex. clothing, makeup, ) placed. The way I see it, we all got what that hippo got inside but that person who commented on the hippo's appearance only saw the the most shallow of layers because that all they had to work with. That's what I'm saying here; strangers you see in parks are not going to open up their soul to you and show you their bare self that easily, and with that in mind I would throw a smile their way and whatever their outer appearance may be, I would let them be. . . And I do just that, At least I would like to think I do.


          So ladies and gents, I'd like to end with, next time you see somebody you preceive as a hippo (and I'm mean definantly not talking about looks here, I mean anything that doesn't strike your fancy) Embrace the hippo, or rather kiss the hippo. Accept the hippo and give them them the benefit of the doubt and let them be..

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Lovecraft


          So I love washed out photos (I'm not sure what the technical term for it is, but that's what it looks to me). Whatever the subject is, it doesn't matter. Plus Emily Soto's photography  is the icing on the two-storey cake. The last picture is my favourite. Leila's eyes are absolutely mesmerising.  A poor boy dropped his jaw on the ground as she floated by him and the thud was loud enough to caught her attention. The she-wolf sets her sights on her prey. She feels like toying with him. She beckons him on with just the power of her glare sending chills through his body, When she lifts the corner of her lips into a smile and bats her eyelashes at him and all the poor boy can do is surrender to his knees and melt on his spot like a popsicle stick that got a little too much sun. . . That's where her eyes took me anyhow.


                                               Leila Goldkuhl for Coco Magazine.
                                               Photos by Emily Soto

                                               full editorial here

Friday, August 9, 2013

All Flowers Bend Towards The Sun








           Snake print and leopard print on a dress always has the power to make me uber-self conscious. Somehow though when it's in the form of pants and awesome jackets with a-shoes-optional shoot, it's clever. Instead of attempting to make sense of the ways Umafay, I'd rather drool over the Kirsi's awesomely awesome eyebrows

                                          Kirsi Pyrhonen for Rika Spring/ Summer 2013

                                                                  full editorial here

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Settle Down Tiger



          So I've been busy.. I hardly had time to do anything at all. I was running from one doctor to the next for the past two weeks, is it now? It was hectic and crazy. Apparently I am a very unhealthy person who needs major help. HELP!

         
          So it was Eid today which we spent sleeping in the car every chance we got as we bounced from one party to the next. So I officially love brown people food. We went to this open buffet party (notice main attraction: open buffet) that was hosted by a brown family. The host when we first arrived at the door greeted us by saying "Welcome to our Brown Family" which I thought was hilarious. Then I randomly ran into an old school chum of mine after that. That would be the fourth so far in the city. What are the chances? Is this city small or is it just me just used to the hectic life in Cairo? I can't decide really.


          Anyways I've made the biggest decision of my life. I'm not going back to Egypt. I'm staying here in Edmonton and moving out of my parents' house. I feel like this is the best decision for me at the moment. I outgrew my dependency on my parents really. It's about time I'd say. I'm really ready for this. I've got a go-go mentality. Pray it sticks around eh? It's still just a mentality for me and now the action required will be postponed till I find the means to hehe.


          First I gotta get settled, get off my behind, look for a job and then plan on moving out. Also I'm currently looking into unis and where my education in Egypt stands. It doesn't look good at the moment but I got my fingers crossed and hopes up :) 

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Home Invasion

         

           So I'm going back home to Edmonton tonight! I'm sooo excited!! I still can't believe it! I've been here in Egypt for nine years! :D I had lost all hope. I could've literally seen myself with nine kids in the future in Egypt. Something I'm not looking forward to. Here's a question I always wanted to ask women with lots of kids "WHY?" But that is question for another day.


          This is too exciting for me to bear. Just found out last night and it was wee morning before the excitement died down enough to get me a bit of sleep. So I'll be transiting through Frankfurt, Germany then Calgary then finally the homeland Edmonton, Alberta. All that in a day, I'm expecting to be deadbeat by then.


          I spent the whole day messaging everybody I know on every single social website I'm on to tell them about this trip. haha The excitement and the screams and shrills on the phone and the ones I imagined where happening on the other side of the computer as I broke the news to all my facebook friends captures my feelings exactly and I would've screamed with them if I didn't already waste my voice ten minutes ago. Now I can only croak but not even that will stop me from being over the moon. Just want to be on the plane right now, Somebody please speed up the day.


          So this is going to be my last blogpost done on this side of the world for a while or if I'm lucky for good. Surprisingly this is the first time something happened to me and I immediantly had the desire to blog about it. Is that a sliver of hope for my blog I see in the horizon? Tune in next episode to find out, meanwhile keep all your fingers an all of your toes crossed.


          Excuse me now so I can go and throw a load of wrinkled clothing into my suitcase and call it packing. Then pick out an outfit that I can wear through four airports and still manage to stay ironed. No excuse to look like a bum. See? I've evolved already :D

Friday, July 12, 2013

Choices and Circumstances



          I've just finished reading this loong so-very-looong scientific article explaining sexual selection and man, was I ever impressed! Basically they give examples that with better genes there is probably a better chance at survival for you, but it's not a complete theory because there is always "on the other hand" Regardless the article was amazing and that was just one of the points there. Sexual Selection - Ignore The Blonde (That was the article's name, not made by me I swear).


          I've been debating to myself about dropping out of the university I'm in to pursue a major in psychology which is what I want to study. What I'm studying, which will remain disclosed, is a compromise. At the decision-making time ( which was just last year btw) I agreed to compromise because there were other factors in play but now are non-existent. So that is a very big letdown for me because now all I have left is studying something I have no desire to make my future career and not even the other factors to motivate me. On the other hand though I'm almost halfway to graduating and earning my degree. When I was making the compromise I was supposed to get this degree and basically make my parents happy because this was what they wanted for me and after all that pursue my own ambitions.


          Now looking back I was basically guilt tripped into accepting because at the time I had a younger brother who had gottten extremely sick at the time, and I was the oldest and I had just graduated from high school. So with so much other familial problems, my higher educational plans were put on hold and I sat at home for one whole year without doing anything productive whatsoever. Who knew doing nothing at all could be so mentally and emotionally draining. I got depressed during that time, and I was looking forward for September to come along so I can start university studying Mass Communications. That dream was struck down though by le parents who disagreed so my only option was to go along with the path they had already set for me.


          You might be wondering why I'm so dependent on my parents. Well when you live in a country where you are not allowed a job then the only thing you have to depend on are the people whose roof you're living under aka the parents.


          I just had my twentieth birthday last month and that was trigger point that got me thinking. Is is really worth it? I really am torn because one other obstacle is if I drop out, the disappointment of the parents is something I do not want to face PLUS I would have to pay for university myself. Me, Who can't even get a job!


          The question still remains should I or shouldn't I quit uni? I was just hoping to reach an answer from all my literal rambling about my life story that I have going on here. Alright some more thinking and weighing of options needs to done on my part. Goodnight!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Back To The Beginning

       I can't believe the last time I posted was a year ago. I seriously am slacking and as soon as I fell off the wagon, I thought that was it, an experiment that failed and I moved on, but for a long while now, I've been thinking of giving it another go. I actually started two other blogs that were on other topics besides fashion but I didn't feel the excitement I did when I was posting here, It hit me that this is what I like to do, sounds silly to me really but I really didn't know. So I'm trying again with my first ever blog and the one I loved the most.

       Alright back to business, something I've been loving is Beyonce in this ad, H&M's latest beach clothing video campaign featuring her song "Standing On The Sun"which I'm pretty excited about.

       I'm watching this over and over again! That is when I'm not stalking her Tumblr

Image Source Beyonce's Tumblr
Photography by Yosra El-Essawy

Image Source Beyonce's Tumblr
Photography by Yosra El-Essawy

Image Source Beyonce's Tumblr
Photography by Yosra El-Essawy

Image Source Beyonce's Tumblr
Photography by Yosra El-Essawy
And my ultimate favourite

Image Source Beyonce's Tumblr