Choices and Circumstances

          I've just finished reading this loong so-very-looong scientific article explaining sexual selection and man, was I ever impressed! Basically they give examples that with better genes there is probably a better chance at survival for you, but it's not a complete theory because there is always "on the other hand" Regardless the article was amazing and that was just one of the points there. Sexual Selection - Ignore The Blonde (That was the article's name, not made by me I swear).


          I've been debating to myself about dropping out of the university I'm in to pursue a major in psychology which is what I want to study. What I'm studying, which will remain disclosed, is a compromise. At the decision-making time ( which was just last year btw) I agreed to compromise because there were other factors in play but now are non-existent. So that is a very big letdown for me because now all I have left is studying something I have no desire to make my future career and not even the other factors to motivate me. On the other hand though I'm almost halfway to graduating and earning my degree. When I was making the compromise I was supposed to get this degree and basically make my parents happy because this was what they wanted for me and after all that pursue my own ambitions.


          Now looking back I was basically guilt tripped into accepting because at the time I had a younger brother who had gottten extremely sick at the time, and I was the oldest and I had just graduated from high school. So with so much other familial problems, my higher educational plans were put on hold and I sat at home for one whole year without doing anything productive whatsoever. Who knew doing nothing at all could be so mentally and emotionally draining. I got depressed during that time, and I was looking forward for September to come along so I can start university studying Mass Communications. That dream was struck down though by le parents who disagreed so my only option was to go along with the path they had already set for me.


          You might be wondering why I'm so dependent on my parents. Well when you live in a country where you are not allowed a job then the only thing you have to depend on are the people whose roof you're living under aka the parents.


          I just had my twentieth birthday last month and that was trigger point that got me thinking. Is is really worth it? I really am torn because one other obstacle is if I drop out, the disappointment of the parents is something I do not want to face PLUS I would have to pay for university myself. Me, Who can't even get a job!


          The question still remains should I or shouldn't I quit uni? I was just hoping to reach an answer from all my literal rambling about my life story that I have going on here. Alright some more thinking and weighing of options needs to done on my part. Goodnight!